ever felt like your life may take a good turn? well it feels just like mine has and i hope it will all be for the best, no matter whatever comes, i am ready and raring to go ^_^
it feels like i am about to get on a rollercoaster, but there is no need to worry about safety, because at every point i am safe from harm, safe in the flow ^_^
anywhozzle, this update has gone well i think, though nothing has really been accomplished except you feeling my elation or whatever this feeling is hehe, also i wish, hope and pray all shall go well in your parts of the world ^_^

Current Music: hide and seek-imogen heap

i haven't posted in a while, but i shall have to post more often...idk why i haven't been posting, guess things haven't been particularly lively here or something <_<
though yesterday was much fun, i won a hoolahoop game thingie and got a shirt of my choosing ^_^
i had fun and wish i would have done it sooner, but i guess i am too much a wuss in that aspect, though i got put up to doing it anyways, guess i was waiting for an invitation or something.
the other up factor is there was a coot seemingly nice guy there, not ony that but i got to hold his hand during the hoolahoop thing ^_^
but alas, that guy was prolly straight and what not :P
oh well doesn't rly bother me, but it'd be nice to meet that special someone eventually, i keep getting the feeling its getting closer and closer, but who knows, ya'know?

anywhozzle on another note, i kinda knew there was going to be a 3rd diablo game, but i didn't know there was a preview for it already and what not...but thats all good, i am glad i got to see it, i can't wait to play it someday ^_^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgbUSsblCSQ

also i wonder what in the world is with the mailing system? i mean i am happy my b-day gift got to me, but damn...it took a week and 2 days to get to me, it was coming from kentucky!....i live in a ohio, which isn't that far, oh well guess its one of those crazy things i guess, i am glad i got it...its adorable O3O

anywho, me done for today
ttfn, talk again soon i hope ^_^

okay i felt i needed to share something i did that shocked me in the fact i didn't think i could say it, but its good to know i can.
okay how it started, i called my grandma, father's side, in the attempt to set things straight about the misgivings she had about her son and my mom.
you see, my dad should have never been a father, he is the reason i have self-esteem issues and other things. not only that, but the fact that he starved my sister on occasion isn't excusable.
we talked for a while, but i steadily began to get alittle agitated with the BS that she came up with.
anywho, towards the end of the conversation, she kept changing topic to ground she could easily defend. guess she didn't like me tearing any of the BS.
when she said,"well it seems we didn't very far, we'll have to talk again some other time", kit (my younger sis) BF was on the other line.
but when she said that, i didn't want to deal with her any longer and i had just dealt with a bit of "drama" with my ex, so i was tired of it, i snapped. the conversation at the point is sorta as follows:
me:oh...before you go, on a finishing note, i am gay
her:why?
me:because i like guys (duh!)
her:well the military wouldn't take you cause of that
me:i know
her:then your not saved
her: are you christian?
me: yeah i am
her:you are going against god (or it was something like the bible says thats wrong
me: bad choice...the bible also says murder, sex in public, drinking and all that is wrong yet alot of humanity does it anyways(see i told margeaux i would use it), hell...there are prolly countless dark fantasy's that people have that you don't know about.
her:your going against god's will (or love...can't quite recall)
me:you know, if god is so loving, he wouldn't care who you loved
she:well you are wrong (or something to that effect, but what came next, is the worst)
she:anyways, you'll die an early death because of aids or something (she says this so casually, i flipped)
me:you..you dare have the audacity, the sheer AUDACITY!, to say something so ignorant!...i am not that dumb to do it intentionally like some or to tempt fate.
her:how's that...
me:anyways, not all gay guys have aids
*silence...di di duuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*
me:*looks at phone*

i was so giddy from that...i must have gotten a buzz off the adrenaline from the anger, my sis was like,"i am so proud of you", i gave her the high five she wanted.
mom was like,"you are bad"
my only response was,"i am tired of drama, i've had enough of it"

i know we prolly have had posts like this before, but i felt i needed to share this
also to hear what you think of what she had to say and if perhaps you had to deal with someone like her.

i am sorry i had updated this in a good bit, my minds been kind of elsewhere and then the general craziness life throw's my way, it's kind of hard to keep all my accounts updated, but i am not complaining...its kind of fun :D

on a new note, i only have 10 pages typed of my story, but that might change eventually, if i get off my ass and do them <_<

anywhozzle in other news,  i need to get out of the house or do something!!! i  am kind of going stir crazy, even though i got some cleaning done today, which makes me feel kind of good. though that reminds me, i need to get a job...gar...i am such a procrastinating lazy ass...oh well, i will get to it soon.

also, i have become addicted to pandora radio, its an online radio that is pretty friggin awesome and i love to death...i am currently listening to it :D

anywhozzle, onward to other accounts i need to take care of and what not ^_^

Current Music: familiar landscapes-new found glory

have you ever wondered what peanut butter and ranch tasted like together?
well i did~<3
so i tried it out, its quite tastey it turns out, but i found out i made a certain error...i used wheat bread, thus it made my stomach hurt xD
so i tried it again tonight, the masochist i am, but this time i used buns, low and behold! its tastey and without pain! though there is one small side effect i can live with, gaseousness xD
what weird food have you concocted and eatten that is really good? O.o

Current Music: the way we are-Cinema Bizarre

i am in a really good mood, i just got re-writables today :D
what does that have in relevance to things you may ask? i shall enlighten thee! it means i can type it up...which means a step towards published it...small and most likely neglible, but a step nonetheless!  :D
atm i am currently typing it up or working on typing it up...which is going to be fun and very very long, but well worth it in the end :D

anywhozzle on other notes, i have a new fave song to add to all my others angelspit's skinny little bitch from their new album thingie :D

also i found some rather intresting things out via looking up imperial college london, after i saw something bout it on  the wiki article of invisibility :D

also idk if its good for me to be staying up at night, but i have been doing it...though it just can't help it, i haven't exactly been in the best frame of mind, but i feel alots lots better now i got something to do..something massive and prolly consume all my time, well all of it that isn't devoted to sleep or my accounts on hither :D

yes i am using alot of broad grin emotes, but hells bells, i am in a damn fine mood atm and i feel you should know it thoroughly, gots that?

any questions? O.o
thought not...now i shall continue on working on me story til i reach the end or however far i can get til i need to sleep XD
ttfn my lovelies :D
X&O's

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: blue by utada hikaru

has been largely uneventful, i kinda slept a good deal of it XD
but anywhozzle, i heard a song that i liked today...well two of them
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpWGhCTw_l8&feature=related
and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wn4nFLlI3Ng

now time for a meme!!
Leave a comment and I will
a) tell you why I friended you,
b) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.,
c) tell you something I like about you,
d) tell you a memory I have of you,
e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) tell you my favorite user pic of yours,
g) in return, you must post this in your LJ.

saturday was the best i've have in a while, because kit was happy and got a wondiferous b-day gift or gifts
i gotta have a conversation that i enjoyed, even though i was in a clammy brain on strike mode <_<
sunday was pretty fun in its own right, but i couldn't sleep...things i wish i could put out of my mind are in it and well needless to say, i couldn't vent them away, it was like saturday's wonderfulness cast a shadow XD
oh well, i'll be better once i actually sleep, which will prolly be a bit of time...though i'll wake at 2 or sooner i hope O.o
anywhozzle, i have come across another person i like alot, robyn, i love her song 'be mine'...idk why beyond mayhap the video is why i like it, well that and the beat. also i love her other song, 'handle me'
okiedoke...i better leave now before i collapse, which is definitely not conducive to non-concussedness

Current Mood: blah

what in the world happened the friday the 2nd? i swear there was some cosmic fumfuddle that screwed around with things today, cuz it was rather crazy and quite amazing, but i'll leave those details for those whom wished to know ^_^

cinema bizzarre is my new fave..well amongst my new faves anywho ^_^

rouen from shining tears x wind is my new obsession character wise ^_^

...idk whatother updates to place here or whatever, besides me going through a spell of depression, but yesterdays conclusion definitely cheered me up fast ^_^

anywhozzle, off to whatever i need to do or i am going to do hope all is well seeya

i feel like worse than shit, but it hardly matters...i brought it on myself though, so i deserve no sympathies and if this comes off as whining or throwing a pity party, i am sorry, its just i felt i should explain my sour and souring mood.

anyways, i finally finished reading sense and nonsense about angels and demons or whatever the hell the book is called, it was very intresting and pointed out things i had never noticed before and think are rather amusing that no-one else had and take alot on assumption alone, its kinda funny XDDDD

i sliced my hand open last night :D
how you may ask, my thumb slipped and the nail cut my hand, well scraped the skin off or whatever, it didn't hurt amazingly...it was pretty amusing i think, but not as amusing as dropping a brick on my other thumbs nail and bruising it a little underneath the nail.

hopefully everyone else's days and whatever are better than mine, ttylatrz

Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: unstable-chaotica